I'm Going to Marry the Most Amazing Man on this Planet

"You are the most beautiful woman in the world, and the only other woman who will ever come close to being that beautiful, will be our daughter."
--Andrew--

We're Engaged!

Well you've done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing, were just one big family
It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Do you want to, come on, scootch over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love
so please don't please don't please don't.
There's no need to complicate
'cause our time is short
This oh this oh this is our fate I'm yours

Oh I'm yours

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's our God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours
--I'm Yours--
Jason Mraz

Petrified Yet Optimistic

May 27th. Official Family Introduction.

One FABULOUS year

Dear God,

Thank you so much for one year ago today when you introduced me to the love of my life, to the man I'm going to marry, have children with and make a life with.

Thank you for bringing the person who has made me the happiest I've ever been in my life.

Thank you.

Love,

Your ever humble servant

God

"Keep the path you're on; just don't forget God. If you remember God, you will be successful. If you forget God, you will fail."
-Raffo Auntie's words to me and Mari before she passed away-

Smile of the Day

Him: I just sent a letter to both senators and my congressman. I called you my fiancé. I didn’t think you’d mind…
Me: That's the first time I've ever heard you use that word for me. Forgive me for I'm very giddy right now.
Him: It will be a true statement before you know it...

God is Great

God is great and I have faith that he will do what's best for me, even when I am hopeless, in the back of my mind, I know He will do what's best for me. He hasn't let me down yet; he brought Andrew in my life and how can I complain to Him when he brought my life to this moment?

Quote of the Day

"Making a living is not the same as making a life."

One Republic

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see

They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
I'm gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, You don't need...

What you need, what you need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
And I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do you see what I see...

Advice of the Day

1) Take risks;
2) Don't be afraid to take a step back in your career if it will help you move forward in the long run;
3) Surround yourself with good people and give them credit;
4) Little things really matter; and
5) Integrity matters more than anything else.

--John Roos--

“Love isn't blind; it just only sees what matters”

--William Curry--

Dear God-- I Hope You're Right!

"Verily, with every difficulty there is relief" -Al-Qur'an[95:6]

Mountain

Mountains

To see mountains in your dream, signify many major obstacles and challenges that you have to overcome. If you are on top of the mountain, then it indicates that you have achieved and realized your goals. You have recognized your full potential. Alternatively, mountains denote a higher realm of consciousness, knowledge, and spiritual truth.

To dream that you are climbing a mountain, signifies your determination and ambition.

--I dreamt that he and I were climbing a mountain together--

Positive of the Day

I just want you to never forget how special you are. You make an impact on ever person you meet. Don't let people walk all over you. You are one tough cookie!

Love,

E

Letter to God for 2009

Dear Allah,

I pray to You for my success with the love of my life and with work. Please bless me with a happy and healthy future with him and healthy children and a good job and a good life...where we can take care of our children in the future and make them successful and good human beings who will also pray to You. Please bless my family and friends and give them all good health and success in their lives also. Thank you for listening.

Your ever humble servant,

Me

Employment

Emotional Roller Coaster.

Can I PLEASE have some consistency.

Here we go AGAIN.

FUCK.
FUCK.
FUCK.

Classic Quote of the Night

"I always wanted a soldier in my family, I just didn't know where to find one."
--Mom, on the phone with Andrew--

Some People are just Ignorant Pieces of Shit

Her: Now do you have family still in Pakistan?
Me: Yes…I do. My extended family…Great-Aunts and Uncles.
Her: You could take Andrew to Pakistan and…
Me: Actually…Andrew won’t be able to go with me, and neither will I if I get a job with a security clearance…but the only reason I’d go back...
Him: To investigate your family?
Everyone: *nervous laugh*
Me: *split second of shock*
Me: No…the only way I’d go back is to visit my favorite Great-Aunt who is very sick..and if I find out that Godforbid she has passed, then I’d go visit.
Everyone: *nodding their heads*
Me: Excuse me, I’m going to see what’s on T.V.
Me: *thinking* WOW…did he REALLY just say that?



Why don’t you *REALLY* say what you think when you look at me. You see a brown girl who might be a terrorist or have family members who are in the Taliban, don’t you? You are nice to me to my face, but you make a ‘joke’ on *MY* family’s expense…ESPECIALLY after you just ate the food I had cooked. You ate my food and you insult my family in the same night.

You_are_a_piece_of_shit!

I hate you … I hate you … I hate you.

Move Over Brad and Angelina

Me: Shandrew...
Him: Could be worse.....Khaylor, Saylor, Than, Ansha, Ahan, Khandrew --of course any kids we had would be Norwisholiutchistani.

Love of your life

He called me the love of his life.