I'll (still) Melt With Him

Today I feel...

in·se·cure /ˌɪnsɪˈkyʊər/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[in-si-kyoor] –adjective

1.	subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured: an insecure person.

Jeg elsker ham.

Jeg kan ikke leve uten ham i mitt liv. Jeg kan ikke sove uten ham. Jeg elsker begynner endelig ved siden av ham. Jeg elsker ham. Jeg elsker elsker elsker ham.

...

hey,
dont write yourself off yet.
its only in your head you feel left out or looked down on.

just try your best, try everything you can
and dont you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

it just takes some time, little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.

hey,
you know they're all the same.
you know you're doing better on your own, so dont buy in.
live right now
yeah, just be yourself.
it doesnt matter if it's good enough for someone else.

it just takes some time, little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
everything will be just fine, (hear me?) everything will be alright.

hey sasha,
dont write yourself off yet
its only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
just do your best, do everything you can.
And dont you worry what the Bitter hearts are gonna say

it just takes some time, you're only in the middle of the ride,
everything will be just fine.


i wish you peace of the heart, mind and soul.

-A-

"What Doesn't Kill You Only Makes You Stronger."

I hate that cliche so much! I hate it more than anyone can imagine. That sentence shows me that the person saying it to me OBVIOUSLY lacks empathy and doesn't know me and has NO fuckin' clue as to HOW strong I am, or WHAT life experiences I've had that have made me what I am today.

I am strong enough, thank you very much.

All I want is a 'That sucks' or 'Sorry to hear that.'

There's NOTHING anyone can do when it comes to anything that I am dealing with in my personal life. When there's no wind; I row. I make my own way and I somehow, someway just get shit done. That's why I don't walk around sharing things with just anyone. Some are so fuckin' stupid and ignorant that they don't realize that this one STUPID sentence is the WORSE thing you can say to someone. This sentence is insulting to me.

After I hear that sentence, the ONLY response that comes in my head is: I say this with no remorse whatsoever; Go fuck yourself.

Classic Quotes of the Day

"I love how Andrew is wearing his Israeli Counter-terrorism tee-shirt in D.C., walking around with his Muslim girlfriend."
--Jason--


"I am watching 'Indepedence Day'. The aliens just struck the White House and fire engulfed the Capitol Building. I started to get worried since I haven't heard from you since yesterday and your apartment is right around the corner. Then I realized that you are probably at Andrew's place ... and aliens don't care about Cincinatti."
--Eric--

Reality

I wanted to tell her that if she applied for the US Government, where she is currently interning might be used against her. Then I realized that it wouldn't be an issue like it was for me.

She's white.

It sucks being a brown girl in DC.

Song of the Day

Love

To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.

Worth the Wait

Its amazing how one sentence made me realize that all this crying and waiting and hoping and praying was worth it. He was worth the wait. He makes me feel exactly how I had always wanted to feel. He tells me he appreciates me. He tells me I'm so good to him when in fact, he's the one who brings out that side of me. Its he who is good to me and makes me feel like I'm the most beautiful and the most luckiest woman on this planet. I am the luckiest woman on this planet. I have found a man who tells me that I am a part of him.

I am a part of him.

Nobody has ever said that to me...ever. If he never whispers another sweet word to me again, it will be okay because that one sentence will keep me going.

Classic

...And That's Why

After an evening of emo-talk courtesy of yours truly, he turns to me and says, "Lets think ahead babe. I mean, do you realize how awkward its going to be on Saturday when you and I are walking around Target holding a bag of diapers?"

That was so unexpected that I couldn't help but burst out laughing.

He has the most unusual way of making me feel better and making me laugh out loud after I've been crying. That...along with zillions of other reasons...is why I love him.

Cynical

The old me: "I think all human being are good inside. Unless someone is mean to me, I am not mean to them."
The current me: "I hate everyone equally until they prove themselves to be decent human beings."

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love


--Leona Lewis--

Marine Corps Girlfriend

Me: Babe?
Him: Yes?
Me: I have a feeling I've becoma a Marine girlfriend whether I like it or not...am I right?
Him: Yep!

...

"You are such a wonderful addition to my life. Having you in it makes me wonder what I did before I met you. Life was far more dull, lonely, not fulfilling and the food was a lot worse too."
--Him--

Square One

Back to square one = Chance for a new adventure and a new beginning.

Now if only I can believe what I just wrote.

I'll stop the world

I'll stop the world and melt with you...

PostSecret

I was at Barnes N Noble bookstore in Dowtown DC with Josh on Sunday. I saw the PostSecret book sitting on display on a table. I ripped out a piece of paper from my notebook and wrote my secret on it. I left it in the pages of the book.

My Mother is So Cute

Mom: I just googled your name, and all these articles come up...!
Me: Mom! ARE YOU STALKING ME?!!?