Jun 22, 2007
Jun 20, 2007
Jun 17, 2007
Ocean's 13
Eye candy + great one liners + great plot = Jolly good movie. I wanna be a cool cat like Clooney when I grow up.
Jun 16, 2007
Nothing Is...
more annoying, stupid and unattractive than a man who is insecure in his relationship and thinks that every time his girlfriend even speaks to another male species, his manhood is threatened. Grow up! And she needs to stop kissing his ass and explaining herself and chasing him because of his emotional blackmail.
"Hang up that damn phone and tell him to get back to you after he's seen a therapist for his insecurity issues. Stop babysitting him."
--Me, to her last night--
Jun 13, 2007
Yea Well...
Sometimes you just gotta say "fuck it." Fuck it all. I'm only out to look out for myself. The rest of you all can kiss my big brown flat ass.
Jun 8, 2007
Ode to God
I can withhold like it’s going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby and you’ve never met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes
I am the wisest woman you've ever met.
I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected.
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
Who's as positive as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you’ve never met anyone as,
As closed down as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go
I'm the funniest woman you've ever known.
I am the dullest woman you've ever known.
I'm the most gorgeous woman you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as, as everything as I am sometimes.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here
And you’re still here
And you're still here...
"Everything"
--Alanis Morissette--
Jun 7, 2007
Overestimate
Overestimate of strength sometimes. Illusion that I walk around with. Over confidence in the ability to hide emotions. Tomorrow, I'll be fine. Today, it hurt a little. I survived today with a little help from my friends who told me I wasn't so crazy to feel that way. Who listened and just let the tears flow and reminded me that my time too will come, who left work to meet me at a Starbucks or stayed late to talk so I wasn't home alone with my thoughts.
Thank you Sarvat, Neeraj and Ali.
Jun 6, 2007
Yellow Roses
The older gentleman walks up with a gorgeous bouquet of yellow roses from the flower shop he delivers from, and gives me the name of the person who is the recepient of that gift. I tell him to go ahead and walk back to find the person so she can be surprised. He comes back a mintue later with the bouquet in his hand.
"She's not back there huh?" I said.
"Nope," He replies.
I signed my initials on the line where it states that someone is babysitting the flowers.
He smiles at me and before walking out looks at me candidly and says, "They should've been for you."
I just smiled and replied, "Aww.You're too kind."
But after he left, I cried.
Jun 3, 2007
...
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon's ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She's another two years older
And she's three more steps behind
Jun 2, 2007
Jun 1, 2007
Jordan Pictures
I finally have the pictures from Jordan up. I'll go in and put the names of the cities and more information later.
May 28, 2007
25 Camels
Beduoin: I will give your family 25 camels for your hand in marriage.
Me: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Baba: *not laughing*
Bedouin: *not laughing*
Me: *thinking* Oh shit! He's serious!
Well there you have it folks. It's official. I'm worth 25 camels in Jordan.
May 26, 2007
Holy Wow!
I did not realize there was this much to see here. I did not realize that there was this much history here. I can't believe that I am staying at the Hyatt in Amman, and in my leisure time; am enjoying an apple hookah on quiet possibly the most beautiful patio of a hotel that I've ever relaxed on with an amazing view of the city. Right now I'm at the Marriott in Petra. Tomorrow I get to see this and I simply cannot wait! Then its back to Amman for more sight seeing.
I was right. We *are* staying at the same hotel. Oy! But that's okay since there is increased security.
Taking lots of pictures. Loving every second of it. People here are SO incredibly courteous and sweet. We have our own personal tour going. Been driving up and down the country. Day one and two was Northern Jordan and now we're further South. Saw the Dead Sea today also. Can stare at Israel across the way...Loving it! Loving it! Loving it!
May 21, 2007
Vacation!
Me: Shopping for Jordan.
Text message: Cool. Who's Jordan.
Me: I'm talking about the country.
MAY 22-JUNE 1
JORDAN!
"I Dance Only For Yoomie Tonight."
Me: Sorry about hitting you in the face with my ass and belt.
Yoomie: How many times will I be able to say that my face was almost taken off by a woman's hip. What was that guy asking you?
Me: Why I wasn't wearing the belt later on in the night.
Yoomie: What did you say?
Me: I only dance when Yoomie tells me to. I dance only for Yoomie.
Yoomie: OH SNAP!
May 19, 2007
Orgie
May 17, 2007
Sometimes...Sometimes
Just because it didn't happen for me like it did for him or her; doesn't mean that my life is any less worthwhile. I dreamt of you last night. Even in my dream I stepped aside. I'm always doing that; stepping aside. Then I was holding a baby, which is a sign of renewal. Something new for me. Something worthwhile which will make me realize one day that I was better off. But sometimes...sometimes...no matter how much I move on to be a better person and move past it all, sometimes this will happen in my day to remind me like it did today.
I realized that there was nothing for me in this country right now and that maybe that is where I should go to maybe get out and get away from everything here which reminds me of how much sometimes things don't feel like they're moving forward and everyone is finding something for themselves but me. Maybe that's why... maybe I am supposed to leave. Maybe that's why *insert all I'm feeling but don't want to reveal out loud here.*
Club Nelson's Big Party 5/19/07
"Lillian will lead skinny dipping, Tania will lead the beer pong, Sasha will be the photographer, Samiha will pull the fake judo, Neeraj will walk around with a handle forcing it down ppl's throats, Jane will pick fights with random dudes three times her size, Irene do the drunk mime, Alex will forget his english, Ivy will show up at 5am and so on..."
